Home is where I belong. Can I really be somewhere I don’t belong? Absolute beingness is one way I hold the Sanskrit syllable ‘sat’. It cannot go anywhere because it includes all that I can perceive, imagine, sense or think of.
“From our perception of the world there follows acceptance of a unique First Principle possessing various powers. Pictures of name and form, the person who sees and the screen on which he sees, the light by which he sees: he himself is all of these.”(Ramana)
Listening to these words I let myself follow the spirit of the words. I ask myself if I can really find any separation between any of these elements. My home as a child imbued me with the sense of me as an entity separate from my surroundings. At age eighteen psychedelic substances gave me experiences that pretty much fit Ramana’s above description. Home in those states of consciousness was always where I was – just as every moment was experienced as now.
I see Home as the state of consciousness that embeds me into the fabric of Existence and in which I experience myself as whole, at rest and fulfilled. I know on that deeper level before the mind that I can never lose my Home, my primordial, natural state. In the 44 years since those first wholeness experiences it has been my passion and my motor to understand (or better ‘innerstand’) the way consciousness works so that I am able to let go of all that distracts me from my pristine natural state as That.