
::
I am experiencing a new cycle on the spiral of my individual inner development. This cycle is showing up as an increased and acute sense of fragility and vulnerability on the emotional level. I am approaching pain and suffering that is focused in my neurology on some deeper level than I have accessed to date. When I touch in to this energy I recognize physical and emotional abuse from my own childhood as well as physical, emotional and mental abuse that Humanity has experienced and is still at this very moment experiencing.
This pain and suffering is an energy that is, of course, simply energy in its basic form and therefore, once I touch into it, it can move again into another frequency. It has been caught up in its present vibrational frequency as pain and suffering simply because my energy field (my body-mind structure) at some point, as a child, felt it had to lock down these sensations and experiences. I, at that point, made the decision to put this energy into a strong container and there it remained until I felt strong enough to open the container and allow that energy to move again into another frequency.
Over the decades, since I first realized that I cannot be harmed by these old energies, I have opened that container and released much of the old pain and suffering. Now, once again, I am opening myself up to embracing these fragments of myself into the one Heart that heals all and purifies all of my energy from such residual impressions and sensations. This is a process of accepting that I am strong enough to look at and feel deeply the pain that has been locked away in me. I realize that there is nothing to fear anymore and that I am an integral part of this great Benevolence that we call Life. I realize that the supreme dimension that I am asked to enter into is the dimension of the creator energy and that that creator energy is Love itself.
All I am asked to do is to train and practice tuning into the Love force that is in me and to first of all direct this Love force to soothe my own pain and suffering. Then I am able to treat my own body and my own feelings with respect, tenderness and caring, giving them the nourishing benefit of the Love and Compassion energy from within me. Only then am I able to treat other with this Love, Respect and Compassion. The strength I then have allows me to be gentle in all my thoughts, words and actions.