“When the controller is the controlled,
seen as an absolute fact, as truth,
then there comes about a totally different kind of energy
which transforms what is.”
The thought-form that most of us grew up with is that there exists an ‘outside agency’ that is on its own, completely independent of us. To state that ‘the controller is the controlled’ and ‘the experiencer is the experience’ turns our world literally on its head.
When we act from the premise that ‘I’ am the subject who acts on an outside agency (which we conceive as being an independent ‘object’), we create a world born of delusion. This ‘I’ is seen and felt as being an individuality that is sovereign and uninfluenced by the whole, by that which we perceive as being ‘the world’ around us.
Of course we must interact with the conditions around us and respond to them in order to attempt to manipulate our environment to our liking, or at least to avoid excessive pain and discomfort. Our activity is always born of and is in alignment with the thought-form that constitutes our deeper belief and governs our deeper feeling-tone in each situation.
The metaphor that comes to mind here is that of a ball of clay, perhaps about the size of a basketball. This ball of clay is the material from which a being is formed, in this case, you or me. The environment within which the clay being perceives itself is also the same ball of clay. Now you see (as if from ‘outside’) this being going into contortions in the attempt to manipulate the rest of the clay ball (itself) into a form of its liking, or at least not all too unpleasant. However, every move it makes results in unforeseen (from this perspective) and uncontrollable repercussions for the entire clay environment.
Notice now how this ball of clay is actually in continual flux, not solid at all, and that it is actually more like a stream of energy that is completely integrated with (one with) the entire ocean of energy that constitutes the manifest universe. Do you get the picture of exactly how delusional our conventional view of reality is? Can you sense how delusional it is to imagine that each of us is an independent individual acting on an outside agency?
At this point Krishnamurti states:
“The controller can never change what is; he can control it, suppress it, modify it or run away from it but can never go beyond and above it. Life can and must be lived without control. A controlled life is never sane; it breeds endless conflict, misery and confusion.”
When we can go beyond the world created by thought – then “there comes about a totally different kind of energy which transforms what is.”
Of course we now ask: “How do I go beyond the world of thought?” Language uses the words “we go beyond the world of thought’, but language is limited. Once we really take in or ‘grok’ the image of the controller being the controlled and the observer being the observed, we also sense on some level how the ‘I’ or ‘we’ cannot actually ‘do’ anything. We can only recognize on a deep level the self-hypnosis, the trance we continually keep ourselves under and reinforce.
Then we stop doing something very definite: we stop taking seriously all thought-forms that go counter to what actually is. These thoughts are no longer fed by us and they no longer take us on the wild ride of believing that we must continually attempt to control Life. Our mind becomes a bit less congested by all these thoughts. Now, in the relatively more clear space, we may begin to have glimpses of how Life (as Intelligent Infinity) already takes care of everything in a most skillful way.
The seemingly ingrained impulse to control Life starts to wane. We find ourselves giving up control and relaxing naturally into the embrace of Life, our true Mother, our true Father. Things start to ‘take care of themselves’, ‘synchronicity’ abounds and we find ourselves being taken care of like the sparrows in the field. Then we discover that our own individual form is being used by this Intelligence as an instrument to get the work done. We finally ‘get out of our own way’, become still inside and are able to hear the cues from Reality guiding us on a very subtle level every second of the day, every step of the way.
“You said the observer is the observed, the meditator is the meditation and there’s meditation only when the observer is not. I would like to be informed about this. For me meditation has been the control of thought, fixing the mind on the absolute.”
“The controller is the controlled, is it not? The thinker is his thoughts; without words, images, thoughts, is there a thinker? The experiencer is the experience; without experience there’s no experiencer. The controller of thought is made up of thought; he’s one of the fragments of thought, call it what you will; the outside agency however sublime is still a product of thought; the activity of thought is always outward and brings about fragmentation.”
“Can life ever be lived without control? It’s the essence of discipline.”
“When the controller is the controlled, seen as an absolute fact, as truth, then there comes about a totally different kind of energy which transforms what is. The controller can never change what is; he can control it, suppress it, modify it or run away from it but can never go beyond and above it. Life can and must be lived without control. A controlled life is never sane; it breeds endless conflict, misery and confusion.”