the crux


I awoke from dream-filled sleep with the following feeling:

“What am I doing here? This makes no sense to me.”

It is very uncomfortable. But since it doesn’t seem to be going away I’ll just have to move with it to the best of my ability.

Remember: stay with what is right in front of you, right now. Put all of your attention on seeing, observing and feeling. Thoughts about any larger scenario – like the rest of the day, the year, the rest of my life and places other than where I am at this moment – are distractions born of fear and are escapes from this simple NOW – HERE.

Remember: there is a state free of thoughts and that is the only true state: sthiti – the standstill state. Cease to feed thoughts of any kind, they are generally insanity. Continue reading