“If you do not lose yourself, then even though you have difficulty, there is actually no problem whatsoever. You just sit in the midst of the problem; when you are a part of the problem, or when the problem is a part of you, there is no problem, because you are the problem itself. The problem is you yourself. If this is so, there is no problem.
“When your life is always a part of your surroundings—in other words, when you are called back to yourself, in the present moment—then there is no problem. When you start to wander about in some delusion which is something apart from you yourself, then your surroundings are not real anymore, and your mind is not real anymore. If you yourself are deluded, then your surroundings are also a misty, foggy delusion. Once you are in the midst of delusion, there is no end to delusion. You will be involved in deluded ideas one after another. Most people live in delusion, involved in their problem, trying to solve their problem. But just to live is actually to live in problems. And to solve the problem is to be a part of it, to be one with it.”
Shunryu Suzuki, Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind, p. 82
What this Zen master is expressing is the sense of Oneness that so many speak of nowadays. When we are able to experience viscerally the state of all being one total manifestation and to realize that all aspects of this total manifestation are in some mysterious way engaged together like a vast organism, then we relax. Then we gain a clear perspective again and we live with confidence although we don’t know what the next moment will bring.
I sometimes feel how my left shoulder moves when I move my right big toe and I feel how my stomach reacts when I hold a certain thought. These are all expressions of everything being connected through the intrinsic order, or ‘web of the cosmos’. There are many terms that express the same thing. Most relevant for me is the realization that I am able to recede in my consciousness to the infinitesimal point we call ‘I Am’. Nisargadatta says: “Even the space is not as pure as the knowledge ‘I Am’.” I feel this point “I Am” as infinitesimal because It is so subtle, finer than space. It is also so pure, completely free of all adulterations of any kind. Only when some identification is attached to It, does It become impure and then gross. It is then bloated with content that is carried over from one moment to the next. Of Itself It is free and infinite, but holding on and attachment of any kind create bondage and suffering.
This is called ‘losing yourself’ and being called back to yourself is to be the present moment. Then there is no subject and object, no ‘you’ and ‘the problem’. This is why they say that to study yourself is to forget yourself. You study yourself and talk about yourself and the world just so you can find yourself again as a homogeneous whole which no longer has anything to know or to make known. Just be That. This is steady consciousness and the stable center. Don’t wobble and if you do just find yourself again and then remain in that place of the Ground of Being, which is your ultimate true nature in this Total Manifestation.