Imagine the image on your computer screen starts to lose its definition around the edges. You are, of course, unsettled, and so you re-boot. Luckily your screen shows a sharp image all the way to the edges once again. Relief!
I had an experience in the state between sleeping and waking a couple of days ago: around the edges of my field of perception, looking out into the room, there were suddenly gaps.
The gap were like the contours of fragments of a honeycomb-pattern: and in the gaps there was nothing. It wasn’t the ‘nothing’ that was ‘visible’ in the gaps that was unsettling, but rather the sense that the holographic projection that you may have heard about, was faulty.
The holographic projection I am referring to is mentioned in many places, and here is one of them: “But the external worlds have been explored from inside the soul carrier, (the body) as that is where the conscious soul fragment lives in holographic reality. The sights, sounds, smells, feel and taste of the external world have always flowed through the senses of the body and are projected by the brain into an inner theater for the soul to experience.” In this essay, this is called the Personal Inner Hologram. (Source: The Central Race, by Teka Luttrell)
This anomaly in my perception led me to reflect more deeply on what I call “reality” and also to reflect on the character of dream experiences that recently have become very, very “real”. What is the difference between dreams during sleep phases and what I am used to calling “real experiences” during my ‘waking’ hours.The following passage by Nisargadatta has shed some light on this for me:
“Once you have seen that you are dreaming, you shall wake up. But you do not see, because you want the dream to continue. A day will come when you will long for the ending of the dream with all your heart and mind, and will be willing to pay any price; the price will be dispassion and detachment, the loss of interest in the dream itself.”
It is true that experiences in the ‘real world’ have begun to lose their attraction for me and I find myself savoring the periods of ‘non-action’ that occur for me. In these periods I find myself opening up to a dimension that may be what I have heard called “the ultimate dimension”, or also “the non-dimensional source of all dimensions”. Perhaps this is the predicted “ending of time”? What a fascinating journey we are on!