Krishnamurti: Aloneness – Clear of All the Rubbish

Krishnamurti

 

Freedom is a state of mind – not freedom from something but a sense of freedom, a freedom to doubt and question everything and, therefore, so intense, active, and vigorous that it throws away every form of dependence, slavery, conformity, and acceptance.

Such freedom implies being completely alone. But can the mind brought up in a culture so dependent on environment and its own tendencies ever find that freedom which is complete solitude and in which there is no leadership, no tradition, and no authority?

This solitude is an inward state of mind, which is not dependent on any stimulus or any knowledge and is not the result of any experience or conclusion.

Most of us, inwardly, are never alone. There is a difference between isolation, cutting oneself off, and aloneness, solitude. We all know what it is to be isolated, building a wall around oneself in order never to be hurt, never to be vulnerable, or cultivating detachment, which is another form of agony, or living in some dreamy ivory tower of ideology.

Aloneness is something quite different.

You are never alone because you are full of all the memories, all the conditioning, all the mutterings of yesterday; your mind is never clear of all the rubbish it has accumulated. To be alone you must die to the past.

When you are alone, totally alone, not belonging to any family, any nation, any culture, any particular continent, there is that sense of being an outsider. The man who is completely alone in this way is innocent and it is this innocence that frees the mind from sorrow.

We carry with us the burden of what thousands of people have said and the memories of all our misfortunes. To abandon all that totally is to be alone, and the mind that is alone in not only innocent but young – not in time or age, but young, innocent, alive at whatever age – and only such a mind can see that which is truth and that which is not measurable by words.

In this solitude you will begin to understand the necessity of living with yourself as you are, not as you think you should be or as you have been. See if you can look at yourself without any tremor, any false modesty, any fear, any justification or condemnation – just live with yourself as you actually are.

It is only when you live with something intimately that you begin to understand it. But the moment you get used to it—get used to your own anxiety or envy or whatever it is—you are no longer living with it. If you live by a river, after a few days you do not hear the sound of the water anymore, or if you have a picture in the room which you see every day you lose it after a week. It is the same with the mountains, the valleys, the trees—the same with your family, your husband, your wife.

But to live with something like jealousy, envy, or anxiety you must never get used to it, never accept it. You must care for it as you would care for a newly planted tree, protect it against the sun, against the storm. You must care for it, not condemn it or justify it. Therefore you begin to love it. When you care for it you are beginning to love it. It is not that you love being envious or anxious, as so many people do, but rather that you care for watching.

So can you—can you and I—live with what we actually are, knowing ourselves to be dull, envious, fearful, believing we have tremendous affection when we have not, getting easily hurt, easily flattered, and bored—can we live with all that, neither accepting it nor denying it, but just observing it without becoming morbid, depressed, or elated?

Now let us ask ourselves a further question. Is this freedom, this solitude, this coming into contact with the whole structure of what we are in ourselves—is it to be come upon through time? That is, is freedom to be achieved through a gradual process? Obviously not, because as soon as you introduce time you are enslaving yourself more and more. You cannot become free gradually. It is not a matter of time.

The next question is, can you become conscious of that freedom?

If you say, “I am free,” then you are not free. It is like a man saying, “I am happy.” The moment he says, “I am happy,” he is living in a memory of something that has gone. Freedom can only come about naturally, not through wishing, wanting, longing.

Nor will you find it by creating an image of what you think it is. To come upon it the mind has to learn to look at life, which is a vast movement, without the bondage of time, for freedom lies beyond the field of consciousness.

Excerpt from J. Krishnamurti: Freedom from the Known (in Total Freedom – The Essential Krishnamurti p. 124 ff.)

My Comment:

There are two parts of this short chapter that are remarkable for me. The first is where Krishnamurti goes into the relationship with my own ‘shortcomings’: “But to live with something like jealousy, envy, or anxiety you must never get used to it, never accept it. You must care for it as you would care for a newly planted tree…”

and gives me the sense of being with my own reactive behavior in a way that allows me to feel it and see it more deeply for what it is. In other places he says, for example, to let jealousy flower, and show itself fully without shutting it down prematurely out of the reaction that “I am not jealous, I’m open-minded” etc. I find his observations here very helpful.

Then the closing part: “for freedom lies beyond the field of consciousness.”

Is so powerful for me, as it brings it home that all I suffer with is part of the mind’s consciousness and that there is a completely separate field which I am embedded in my whole life and that is the existential, the same as all of nature. I then interpret that existential and create the “ideational” as Deshpande calls it in his commentary to the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali (The Authentic Yoga). I do, as Krishnamurti states here, have the power to relate to the existential NOW at any point—irrespective of all past moments of my life.

Bamboo in the Wind

Lisa Gawlas reblog

Liza Gawlas excellent, as always!

Some Highlights:

“Now I really understand what spirit meant when it said that we can move out of the center at any given time.  The mental mind is wired to all timelines.  The mind is a processor of massive amounts of encrypted information at any given time.  The heart on the other hand, is a magnetic honing device.  It resonates with pure love and seeks that zone!

When you allow your heart to lead, the mind already knows the way.  However, when you allow your mind to lead, it gets very lost and confused along the way.  There is something happening in every timeline… and often times, the mind gets caught up in all the chatter (keep in mind, the mind is a fear based entity, so it naturally gravitates to where fear is strongest.)

We have navigated a tremendous maze of energy/timelines/thought forms to arrive at the bird feeder in the middle.  There, life is abundant, nurturing  fear of any kind cannot sustain itself Here.  In this precious place I am now going to call the mirror of Shambhala, where heaven resides fully within the heart… love is all there is.”

The Shift of Time and Energy!

We really have become the farmers and custodians of the New Earth.  I read for a man yesterday and I don’t think I appreciated the fullness of his reading until this morning.  This morning I have actually been sitting here for over an hour now pretty much going over a “contrast” review.  Maybe better said, a timeline review.  I received an email yesterday about a global meditation coming up this month.  The more I read of it, the more I kept feeling… this has already been done with the Harmonic Convergence in 1987.  What the global meditation is set up to do, has been done or we could not be here, in this new world/new earth energy.  So I have been pondering the contrasts between what was seen with my man yesterday and the details emerging from our timeline called 2013 and those still seeing and being concerned about the “dark entities  within the astral plane.

Of course, spirit has been…

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